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Being on medication does some strange things to you. One of the biggest problems I had while depressed was poor sleep. Most nights I got very little sleep. I'd usually stay up late then wake up early. On the nights I did go to bed early, it took me anywhere from and hour to 3 hours to fall asleep with constant tossing and turning. While alseep, I would wake up about every hour. It would take me a while to fall back asleep. And I would always wake up about an hour before I needed to. Also, no matter how much I slept, I was always exhausted. I always felt like I needed a mid afternoon nap. When I first took my medication, I was restless at bed time. I couldn't fall asleep. Didn't she tell me I would sleep better? I reduced my medication from 40 to 20 mg which helped. Now I fall asleep almost immediately, and roughly get 7 hours a night. Oh but what an interesting 7 hours. I've noticed that my dreams have become more vivid. I can remember parts of my dreams now. And the parts I remember give me the illusion that they happened in real life. They feel so real that I actually think they happened. Whenever I see something in real life that was changed in my dream I experience a bit of shock. It takes me a second to realize that it was a dream. And whenever I think back about a dream, they feel like actual memories, rather than just ghosts of an event. I don't mind it. In fact I enjoy it. I love being able to fully immerse into a dreamworld and escape the physical world for 7 hours. I'm only worried that I'll have a terrifying nightmare. Even though I'm getting the best sleep I've had in a long time, it's not with out it's oddities.